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Chapter 4 - The Demolition of Ghosts

For fifteen years, Alexander’s old bedroom had remained an untouched museum of my devotion.

The high school track medals still hung from the brass lamp on the desk. The drafting board I had bought him for his sixteenth birthday—costing me three weeks of hardware store profits—stood in the corner, holding his early charcoal sketches of the Austin skyline. His college textbooks, thick volumes on tensile structures and reinforced concrete, were neatly organized on the pine bookshelves his father had built before he died.

Every week for fifteen years, I had dusted that room. I had washed the curtains. I had vacuumed the rugs. I had preserved it like a sacred shrine, foolishly believing that as long as the room remained ready, my son would always have a tether to home.

Now, I looked at it with the cold, objective eye of a builder assessing dry rot.

The sentimentality was gone. It had burned away at the dinner table in Spanish Oaks, suffocated by the smell of truffles and Alexander’s vicious, dismissive shout.

I dragged four heavy-duty corrugated wardrobe boxes into the room.

First went the track medals. Into the box.

Then the drafting tools, the triangles, the T-squares, the French curves. Into the box.

The architecture textbooks from UT. Into the box.

When I reached the closet, I found three designer suits Alexander had left behind five years ago when he upgraded to bespoke Italian tailoring. They were expensive, wool-blend garments that still carried the faint scent of his cologne. I took them off their wooden hangers, folded them without sentiment, and packed them into a separate box labeled: *DONATION – Austin Salvation Army.*

By noon, the room was stripped down to its bare bones: the original longleaf pine floorboards, scarred by eighty years of use, and the four walls painted in a faded, tired cream.

I went out to my backyard workshop and rolled in my heavy-duty Makita orbital sander, three packs of 80-grit abrasive discs, and a gallon of industrial denatured alcohol.

My dream had never been hardware.

When Mateo and I were young, before the store consumed our lives, I had dreamed of restoring antique furniture. I loved the soul hidden inside discarded wood. I loved finding an eighty-year-old oak sideboard covered in peeling lead paint, stripping away the neglect, repairing the broken mortise-and-tenon joints, and rubbing pure tung oil into the grain until the wood glowed like amber.

For forty years, I had told myself: *There’s no room in the house. You have to focus on Alexander’s tuition. You have to save for Alexander’s safety net. You have to keep the store running so Alexander has a fallback.*

I knelt on the floor, strapped on my dust respirator and eye goggles, and pulled the trigger on the sander.

The motor roared to life, a high-pitched, grinding song of raw power. White pine dust billowed into the air. With steady, practiced sweeps of my arms, I began stripping away the old varnish, erasing the scuffs left by Alexander’s sneakers, erasing the phantom footprints of a boy who had grown into an ungrateful tyrant.

My arms ached. My lower back burned. But with every square foot of pine that turned pale and clean beneath the sandpaper, my heart felt lighter. I wasn't just refinishing a floor; I was stripping my life down to its original, unyielding substrate.

At two o’clock, while I was taking a short break on the front porch, drinking cold water from a mason jar, an old white Dodge flatbed pulled up to the curb.

It was Hector Gomez, the retired master carpenter who used to buy all his red oak and hardware from me back in the nineties. Hector was seventy-four now, with silver whiskers and hands that could carve a violin out of scrap timber.

“Teresa!” Hector called out, stepping out of the truck. “I saw your truck at the lumber mill this morning. What are you building?”

“I’m not building, Hector,” I smiled, wiping sweat from my forehead with the back of my forearm. “I’m clearing. Come inside. I have something for you.”

Hector followed me into the house. I pointed to the boxes of architecture books, the drafting table, and the expensive drafting pens.

“Take them for your grandson,” I said. “He’s starting his engineering program at Texas A&M this fall, isn’t he?”

Hector looked at the high-end drafting equipment, his eyes wide. “Teresa, this equipment is worth thousands of dollars. Alexander’s gear... are you sure?”

“Alexander doesn’t need them,” I said firmly. “He has five-thousand-dollar rendering programs on computers paid for by other people. These belong in the hands of a boy who knows what it means to work.”

Hector looked at me for a long moment. He was a smart man; he didn't need to ask questions to understand the quiet storm that had passed through my family. He simply nodded, touched his hat respectfully, and said, “Thank you, Teresa. Mateo would be proud of how you keep your house.”

Together, we carried the boxes out to his truck. By three in the afternoon, Alexander’s past was completely gone from my home.

In its place stood an eight-foot workbench, two heavy iron vises, and three unrestored Victorian walnut dressers I had bought at an estate sale three years ago and never had the time to touch.

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I plugged in my heat gun, grabbed my scraping knife, and went to work.

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